21 Years.
One Journal.
I'm Lars. I've kept a journal for 21 years. My stepdaughter came into my life when she was 18 months old. Today she's 17. My biological son is 12. I've lived every version of blended family life the good days, the brutal ones, and the ones that just quietly break you.
I've written about the loss of a child. About going through a severe depression while still being the dad who had to show up. About loyalty conflicts, invisible roles, and days when you wonder if any of it matters. And about the small beautiful moments that nobody tells you to notice.
This newsletter exists because I couldn't find what I needed. Everything out there was therapy-speak or feel-good nonsense. Nothing was written by someone actually in it every single day, with real kids in a real house.